What is a crush?

I dreamt my crush gave me skin to skin like a newborn. I’ve been sad for three days, and on the third he made himself bare and let me rest my cheek on his chest.

I’m 22 and I’ve only ever wanted to be held.

I am satisfied. This is culmination. A long day at work, a warm meal.

I slept frozen in ache, Woke up aching, melted, raw,

but momentarily held.

I believe my dreams. Sometimes they hold more substance than what I see and reach..

What is a crush but love in the dark?

What is a crush but stolen kisses?

What is a crush but a pedestal for you to lay your desires on.

I am satisfied because I don’t believe in crushes. I don’t believe in distance between people meant for me. I’ve never wanted anyone.

So if I want you, maybe you’re meant to stay on the rims of my subconscious. You serve me better in the ethers.

What is a crush but God’s projection?